Hi, i am the owner of this site!! lol i thought i should start the "convo" off with my story!
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I was a sophomore, 15, in hs. My bf was 17/18, a senior. I never wanted to have sex with him without a condom on, yet i was coerced otherwise 47 times (yes i counted). He would either get mad or like pouty and sad if i refused to have sex with him and literally saying "No!", but to get him to stop acting like a baby and because i felt guilty, i would just let him do whatever he wanted to do (give or take it was only 30 seconds, that's still rape). i was innocent and blamed myself for a while. i thought that was love, it was my first relationship that included sexual acts other than kissing. i hate him for it. i have diagnosed ptsd from this asshole. dont forget it gets worse. his best friend at the time, also one of my best friends, molested me. during school hours he would convince me to talk to him when he was "in a time of need" and instead just lure me into a hallway with no cameras and push me up against a wall to touch me and kiss me (dont forget he was in a relationship with my best friend at the time as well). He would force me to send him pics of myself by telling me if i didnt, he would tell my current bf that i was cheating, and i was already scared of my current bf. all 4 of us hung out one time and right next to his gf he forced me to touch him under the blankets. it was seriously nauseating. probably the worst years of my life was this group. the other gf is my friend still, but these two guys seriously fucked us up in more ways than one. one guy was still 17 and raped a 13 year old as well that was close to my and my friend might i just add.
Trauma is inflicted by those who are hurt themselves i feel like, but it still doent give anyone the right to do so to you. Please go get help, i couldnt even admit i was raped until years later and i just started processing it and now im a junior in college. help is always out there. tell who you need to tell in order to make things better for you. we are in control of our own trauma now.
i love you guys 💖
xx Raquel